Thank you for the words of encouragement. I am happy with whatever I do, since I've been tol I should have died that day (did a sewlf rescue, but was told my breathing should have malfuntioned and I should have just stopped breathing). I am back to following 5.12 cracks but can't lead till october. figure may miss this upcominbg ice season or maybe not. I just have to take one day at a time.