Josh,
I am so sorry to read u had to suffer so much for some loss (I guess), but I think you misunderstood me.
I won't give up, I must not give up, I am giving my best shot (I'm at home for some rest before the next chemo, and trust me, this is not the last chemo, if this one fails, there's others! Learn that info just about now a couple hours ago), and I don't give up, NEVER! All I said was, it is really bad, and if I die, I accept it with no hard feelings. That's all.
After all, like I said here to sooooo many friends and not friends, "who said die is so bad?" After all, this is just the last summit we all have to atop in our lives, and believe me, you too shall do it some day. lol
All I'm saying is, I'm not afraid to die (even though I am literally, a little bit more each day), I don't care about it, and I don't give a shit or a rat's ass to leukemia, fuck it! I'll fight to the last man if I have to and I'll give this bitch hell before I go, and my final weapon is: If I go, she'll go with me, simple as that.
Don't give up on me Josh, because I did not gave up on you guys!!!
Here's the new current: Alllllll rise with me and let's shout out loud: "Fuck leukemia!!!"Trust me, all I write here, I don't "just write", I truly feel it.All the best to all and happy new year!!!