by builttospill » Wed Dec 01, 2010 10:38 am
mvs,
I don't know anything about the second part of your post, with regard to what's been happening on SP. I've made myself scarce over the last few months, but not because of SP itself--just life.
But the first part of your post resonated with me. I've often had similar thoughts. Usually they have been the opposite direction though: what kind of adventure have I given up by choosing a slightly more comfortable job? Or by going back to school? Or by settling down with my girlfriend? I sometimes wonder about what I've given up in favor of climbing, but less now because the pendulum has swung far away from climbing and adventure to the other side....
It's obvious from the responses that a lot of people don't think this way. I've written posts eerily similar to your's in the past, both here and elsewhere. It's not as common a viewpoint as I always thought. But for people who think in the way I do (and the way I think you do), it's hard not to second-guess decisions, to look back and wonder "what if?" I know it's not healthy for me, and I wish I wouldn't do it and I know I'd be happier if I didn't, but it's me. It was my Dad too, and I see him in the mirror more and more each day. I don't say that in a good way.
But, in any event, just wanted to say that some people out there hear you--or at least hear what they want to hear from you. Hopefully it's a passing phase, but sometimes a reevaluation is a good thing. I also think listening to some of the "grab life and don't look back" folks here sometimes is good. It's gotten me out into the mountains in the past, and that's always been good for me. I'm sure the same is true for you.
Good luck.