I'm just curious if anyone else experienced this. Internally, I used to "burn really bright" with mountaineering topics. You know, in addition to the weekends, making special trips to see certain speakers, or evenings in the basement with crevasse rescue, or hanging from ice tools from a tree in the frozen backyard, etc.
But I just don't do that anymore. There are just so many more curious things that don't touch on climbing. I used to be a painful micro-manager of trips, with like, chart maps of low/high pressure over the range, 3 alternate destinations, 2 alternate partners, all kinds of rigamarole. Nowadays, I let my friends do the planning...I'm like..."cool! Sounds good!" The only thing I ask of myself is that I be in some semblance of decent shape.
I don't know right when that happened. I continued being very gung ho way past marriage and kids, disturbingly so depending on who you ask. :p It is a little sad to go away from that version of me that was ready to live in a crevasse for 6 months just to be slightly stronger but no amount of wistfulness can awaken my motivation to actually do anything about it.
Seems like now I like the whole context of a day, part of which is in the mountains. Before, I'd be excited about the 8 hours in the hills, and everything else was "the boring stuff." Now, it's great to go on a long hike, and anticipate dinner or playing with the kids or planning a lazy movie day for Sunday.
I used to think less of people like myself now. I would think "how can they claim to enjoy what they barely focus on, in depressingly reasonable increments? Why aren't they mounting a real effort?" Now I see that as tunnel vision, partly an admirable concentration that I wouldn't go back and change, but partly the result of only dimly perceiving forms beyond myself. So, good and bad. Maybe later I'll look back on the current phase with an equal mixture of pity and bemusement, who knows.
Anyway, I know it's a boring topic, but it crops up a lot for me, seemingly as central as wondering about Rebuffat traversing the Aiguilles or whether I should get new Nomic tools, and dang I've gotta go bouldering more. I guess here's to perspective and wisdom and experience and stuff (I'm even making myself yawn)
--Michael