I'm in a funk.
This has happened before about 12 years ago. I somehow get into this mental state, like my head is full of peanut butter and I simply cannot decide or make up my mind
what peaks to climb, trails to hike or whether or not climb at the local crags. It's not typically long after, that I lose all motivation and go home, scrapping the day.
The first time, this lasted almost 2 years.
Recently, just a few days ago, my girlfriend and I took a friend on an easy hike to Signal Mountain. He ended up turning around due to reasons associated with his dog.
Steph and I continued another mile or so snowshoeing through some wet, gloppy, generally unpleasent snow before I lost interest and we also, turned around.
Reason I'm typing this and posting it here on Summitpost is because with the sheer amount of ability and experience with members on this site, someone is bound
to know what I'm going through. I'm not looking for 'help' per se, but something more in line with advice or personal examples of the same problem and what you
did to counteract and solve it.
I am starting back to school after a 5-yr hiatus and it's something I'm pretty serious about. I've concluded that after years of living in the mountains, that guiding and outdoor
occupations won't give me the income or life I want. It's hard to pay the mortage/car payments/food with philosophical insights and epiphanies. So I know without a doubt that
this is adding to my current slump or depression...whatever.
I've seen this same question often posed on other sites under similar guises, usually more philosophically geared, but I've ALWAYS lived things in the moment (seriously) and have never really
been on this side of the coin before. I'd be full of shit if I didn't say it wasn't frustrating as all hell. It feels like I'm fighting something that I can't define, label or see.
So...has anyone here ever experienced this or gone through similar situations? That is, no motivation, no interest, apathy reigning supreme...
If so, I'd love to hear what [you] did to overcome it and move on past it.
Thanks, guys.
Kiefer